words without actions are nothing. actions without words are confusing. :|

i've been happy lately that i've forgot that i got my heart broken 3 months ago. perhaps because of the too many blessings i have received lately. "god is close to the broken-hearted and to those who have less in spirit." now, i strongly believe in this quote because as i have thought that i won't be capable of coping up and moving on this easy; god shaked me and made me realize that what i prayed for is not the BEST for me and he will give me the BEST in his own time. thankyou GOD. i may have not realize it back then but thankyou; it already sinked in my system. i have forgot what he said, what he did but i will not forget what he made me feel. after the painful memories he caused me. today, i can finally say everything is finally GONE.


gone? some of you won't believe it but yes i could feel that way. it's maybe because i have someone else. someone else who made me feel so much better. someone, who has always been an exemption despite my accusation that all guys are jerks and heart-breakers. someone who surprises me and a whole lot of everything else a girl would want. i don't want to take risks when it comes to you; i don't think this is a gambling game i could play, wherein i can withdraw bets.


i've been wanting to tell you to stay away because i'm scared that in the end i'm the only one that's inlove and i would not want to sacrifice n friendship we have. since i don't know if your actions mean something to you or maybe "ganun ka lang talaga sa lahat ng babae." and gaya nga ng sinabi mo sa iba "FRIENDS LANG talaga KAMI." sheesh. friends lang pala. :( despite that i still want to be next to you. i still want you to pull my hand and wrap it around you in the couch, mingle and be sweet to you. but please please. stay away if this really means nothing to you. please consider the fact that i'm fragile and i might break.

"words without actions are nothing. actions without words are confusing. :|"

yes, i'm CONFUSED.

i know you would read this someday. scares me that i wouldn't like your reaction. i just wish someday i could find the courage to tell you all of this.