Help :(

This is just random. But I don't know where to start. How to start. And what to say. Its been quite sometime since I had him as my partner (a year and two months) but everyday is getting hard on my part. Everyday when I'm with him there's a time when I'm at my highest and get that giddy feeling but before I sleep I know I don't feel happy anymore I feel no love for me and all of this is just a mistake; I'm not contented with the love I'm getting. I feel that I'm not a priority here. I feel like nothing. Everyday I cry myself to sleep asking why have I ever chose him and have I ever thought of it. At the back of my mind I know that it took me quite sometime to really consider the deeper understanding between the both of us. But I may have considered the wrong choice. It still bothers me how in the world can he sleep knowing that I'm just at the other side of the bed hurt and crying. I'm tired and this life is full of crap, bullshits and dilemmas. Lord, give me a break!! I'm tired of this relationship and I'm tired of crying as well. You know my requests an complains why can't you help me to make him realize without me saying? How can everything change? I'm starting to lose grip. Help, I need help. :(